So I was just reading and i found this quote i think is pretty cool:

"Tha God is more powerful than all of us wasn't surpising to discover. That God in His infinite wisdom knows more than all of us, again, is a no-brainer. But the realization that God, in all of His power and knowledge and wonder, is more humble thatn any of us is virtually beyond comprehension. The humility of God is perhaps one of His most overlooked and unappreciated virtues." Erwin McManus from his book Uprising

In matthew 20:28 it says (im paraphrasing from memory... haha) that Jesus did not come be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.

It kind of makes me wonder what in the heck was God thinking?? I mean he created us, he knows what we're like, lol.... but still he wanted to come down here and live on this earth and suffer and die, just so we could be with him. and he did all that knowing that still so many people would reject him and not care. I mean, honestly hes the one person who really has a right to be served or to be worshiped, but he chose to spend his time helping everyone around him. If God himself was not too busy to take time out of his agenda and help other people, not just occasionaly but constantly throughout his day.... then shouldnt we be able to do the same?? I mean how much more important is Gods agenda than ours??

I think that one of the best examples that Jesus set for us was realizing that he was not on earth for himself, or for his own purpose. He realized that his life was not his own, that it did not belong to him, his time was his own either, and with that in mind he did not mind serving other people. If we look on our lives with that perspective, then its not such a problem or big deal to take time out and help someone else out with something. and from my experience, when you put others first, especially when you have to sacrifice your time, or your energy, it all works out, it all gets done, and you end up feeling better. and then times when you refuse to help others because you think you have too much already, or you just dont want too, then its all crazy... i dont know.. maybe it only makes sense to me!! but anyway.. those are my thoughts....

So first off... im gonna try and keep this updated more often.... i tend to just write on my myspace blog cause i just put general stuff there, and here i usually put more deeper thoughts.. anyway...

secondly... i have another song for ya!!
Its by superchick and its called Beauty from Pain

The lights go out all around me
On Last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know im alive but i feel like ive died

All that left is to accept that its over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i jsut grow colder
I feel like im sleipping away

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
And life before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i cant understand why this happenedIi know that i will when i wake up somedya
and see how youve brought beaurty form ashes. and made me as gold purified from these flames

After all ths has passed
I still will remain
After ive cried my last
Theyll be beauty from pain
Though it wont be today
sometday ill hope again
And theyll be beauty from pain, you will bring breauty from my pain

I dont know this just made me think a lot.... like no matter how tough or complicated the situation gets, God has put us there and we can take hold of hope knowing that there is a purpose in our suffering, and on the other sid eof it all, we will be okay, we will ahve grown, and the hope that we had once lost will be our again... not only that, but we will be better people because of it... beauty will come out of our pain... get it?